I'm Such a Fake.

I'm such a fake.
I pretend to be a good person,
but that is a lie.
My mind wanders
And I usually take myself to wander with it.

I'm such a fake.
One day I'm happy
Another day not.
My fickle attitude wears me out
And I am sure others, as well.

I'm such a fake.
I don't want to be.
Why do I make myself stay in this rutt?

I'm such a fake.
What's worse
I know how to fix it
But have no will-power to do it.
Why not?

I'm such a fake.
But, Oh God,
I want to be real.