A Fleeting Thought

I had a strange thought pop into my head tonight. It was one that shocked me at first. It was a thought I would have never expected to appear in my brain. Sometimes I wonder if these blasphemous thoughts are just attacks from the enemy or my own flesh wandering through the "other side". Perhaps attacks from the enemy and my wandering flesh are one and the same...?

I recently began a new job that exposed me to a different culture. "The real world" some may call it. At my previous place of employment (which was Moravian Hall Square) a majority of my co-wokers were Christians or people that were raised in a church-going family. One girl even met the Lord during my time there. As one can imagine, it was a fairly safe and comfortable environment for me. At Old Navy, where I currently work, there are only two God-fearing people, and that might be pushing it. I am sincerely hoping that there are more, but I honestly do not know.

As I work there longer I am becoming better acquainted with my fellow employees. I get along with some better than others. There are two people in particular that I like. They are kind enough to ask me how I am, they call me by name and they try to involve me in their conversations. Now, these conversations are overflowing with curse words and are usually about topics I do not approve of let alone comprehend; however, as I was standing there with them this evening I thought to myself They seem happy even without the Lord.

Loud sirens went off in my head and I swear my face turned red signalling to others that something unusual just occured in my brain. Where in the world did that thought come from? I know with all of my being that it is not true. No one in this world can be truly happy or content with their life without the Lord Jesus Christ being in their heart. But, for just a second, as I observed these people, I thought that they seemed perfectly happy.

God, forgive me for letting that thought invade my mind. Now, I just need to diligently pray for their Salvation so that they can find real happiness. I guess there is no sin in a thought like this passing through my mind, but it is a sin to believe it is truth.