The Consequences of Whining

I have no topic in mind, really. I just want to get some thoughts out of my head.

Wednesday was a really bad day for me. Dominick worked from nine in the morning until eleven o'clock that night. When I am home alone all day I tend to think more than I should. Thoughts that invaded my mind dealt with not living here in Maryland. If I lived at home I would have people to visit, my job would have kept me more busy, I would be going to school, I could see my nieces and nephew, etc. But, no matter how much I cry about it or complain about it, I cannot be at home now.

When Dominick came home I cried on his shoulder and told him how I felt. His reaction was silence. He pushed me away and sat silent. He whispered to me, "Am I a bad husband?"

A shock of remorse and guilt hit me when I heard those words. How selfish am I?! That was the last thing I wanted him to feel. I do not know what I wanted him to say to me or what I expected to change by complaining. Selfishness and complaining can hurt many people around you. Lesson I learned: Instead of thinking of me, think about the other people in your life that are also sacrificing in order to make you happy. Marriage is only good when the wife thinks about her husband first and when the husband thinks about his wife first. My Dominick is very good at this, but I need lots of work.